[ Nothing he says is wrong, but it fuels an annoyance in him all the same, running a hand over his face as if that just might wake him up a little further to dive into the conversation they seem to be steering into with his friend's response. ]
It ain't like that. I ain't marrying the girl. This ain't β she's a goddamn good person who's helped me out. Who helps anybody even if they're not worth her time. Because she has that kind of heart, alright? So what, you want me to just leave her to be fed to these shitty assholes?
[ He nips hard at his lip, deep breaths that leave him facing away from the camera as she tries to steer himself within control of his frustrations. ]
Now I've lost someone already too, Bill. Someone from home, okay? She was my priority and I've spent weeks trying to track her, trying to find out more about these bastards running this goddamn game and nothing. You think I don't know how important this shit is? You think I'm sitting here playing house like I don't know what the hell is really going on here? If it were up to me, I'd kill all these bastards without a second thought, and you know it. You know it.
[ He needs to breathe, the blood boiling and prickling beneath his skin, his eyes crazed as he thinks of what he could really be doing, what he should be doing, if he had the right intel and weaponry. How he wouldn't hold anything back.
With the mention of a contract, he merely huffs a false laugh, shaking his head. ]
Ain't that just part of it, Bill? What they want us to do? Since when the hell did we ever need a contract? Jesus Christ, you're my brother. We don't need β but it's bigger than you and me, Bill. It's more than just us now.
No. No, that's not what I'm saying. ( don't go twisting up his words, frankie. don't make him out to be the bad guy here. ) Look, man, I know there are good people here. You're not the only one making connections here, but... but you need to be level-headed about this. I'm not turning a blind eye to the fucked up shit going around here. I'm not telling you to either. But as good as these people are, they can't become important. Not enough to make you pull that reckless shit you did on me last night.
( god, he needs to keep his cool here. ) I told you to wait, Frankie. I told you to wait it out and we would handle it together, but you justβ ( there is an incredulous edge to his smile as he tries to conceal his frustration. ) you just ran out on me, man. You completely flipped your shit and ran out. ( he grows silent for a moment before he continues more quietly. ) You know I'll go to hell and back for you, but I need you to be able to trust me. Not just on the battlefield, but outside of it. You don't gotta listen to me. I'm not trying to control you. I'm only saying all of this because you're my family, Frank, and I'm looking out for your best interest. I can't have you disappearing on me too.
( when it comes down to the bottom of it, billy can handle karen, roan and any number of other people he knows in this shit hole of a city disappearing, but if they get to frankβ if they get to frank, he will be the one snapping. he is already coming close to it. ) I'm... I'm not doing great, man. ( not the time, bill. breathe. )
Point is, I need to know you won't freak out on me like that again. I know you care about her. You're a good guy, Frank. Better than I'll ever be. But I'm not gonna stand by and watch you compromise your safety because you've lost control of your emotions.
( a slight grin: ) At least not without me. ( humor to ease the tension. whatever it's worth at this point. )
Wait. ( someone from home? ) Hold up. ( she? ) I didn't know you were looking for someone back home too. ( it couldn't be karen, could it? ) I got an acquaintance from New York who'd went missing a while back. Been searching for her as well. ( she's back now. obviously. ) She'd disappeared first. ( well, at least this is gonna drive his suggestion home. ) I ain't a fan of the contract either, Frankie, but I've had two people I know vanish without a trace. It's not an ideal situation, but we can use it to our advantage and keep an eye on each other at the same time. Play the system while we figure a way out of it.
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[ Nothing he says is wrong, but it fuels an annoyance in him all the same, running a hand over his face as if that just might wake him up a little further to dive into the conversation they seem to be steering into with his friend's response. ]
It ain't like that. I ain't marrying the girl. This ain't β she's a goddamn good person who's helped me out. Who helps anybody even if they're not worth her time. Because she has that kind of heart, alright? So what, you want me to just leave her to be fed to these shitty assholes?
[ He nips hard at his lip, deep breaths that leave him facing away from the camera as she tries to steer himself within control of his frustrations. ]
Now I've lost someone already too, Bill. Someone from home, okay? She was my priority and I've spent weeks trying to track her, trying to find out more about these bastards running this goddamn game and nothing. You think I don't know how important this shit is? You think I'm sitting here playing house like I don't know what the hell is really going on here? If it were up to me, I'd kill all these bastards without a second thought, and you know it. You know it.
[ He needs to breathe, the blood boiling and prickling beneath his skin, his eyes crazed as he thinks of what he could really be doing, what he should be doing, if he had the right intel and weaponry. How he wouldn't hold anything back.
With the mention of a contract, he merely huffs a false laugh, shaking his head. ]
Ain't that just part of it, Bill? What they want us to do? Since when the hell did we ever need a contract? Jesus Christ, you're my brother. We don't need β but it's bigger than you and me, Bill. It's more than just us now.
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( god, he needs to keep his cool here. ) I told you to wait, Frankie. I told you to wait it out and we would handle it together, but you justβ ( there is an incredulous edge to his smile as he tries to conceal his frustration. ) you just ran out on me, man. You completely flipped your shit and ran out. ( he grows silent for a moment before he continues more quietly. ) You know I'll go to hell and back for you, but I need you to be able to trust me. Not just on the battlefield, but outside of it. You don't gotta listen to me. I'm not trying to control you. I'm only saying all of this because you're my family, Frank, and I'm looking out for your best interest. I can't have you disappearing on me too.
( when it comes down to the bottom of it, billy can handle karen, roan and any number of other people he knows in this shit hole of a city disappearing, but if they get to frankβ if they get to frank, he will be the one snapping. he is already coming close to it. ) I'm... I'm not doing great, man. ( not the time, bill. breathe. )
Point is, I need to know you won't freak out on me like that again. I know you care about her. You're a good guy, Frank. Better than I'll ever be. But I'm not gonna stand by and watch you compromise your safety because you've lost control of your emotions.
( a slight grin: ) At least not without me. ( humor to ease the tension. whatever it's worth at this point. )
Wait. ( someone from home? ) Hold up. ( she? ) I didn't know you were looking for someone back home too. ( it couldn't be karen, could it? ) I got an acquaintance from New York who'd went missing a while back. Been searching for her as well. ( she's back now. obviously. ) She'd disappeared first. ( well, at least this is gonna drive his suggestion home. ) I ain't a fan of the contract either, Frankie, but I've had two people I know vanish without a trace. It's not an ideal situation, but we can use it to our advantage and keep an eye on each other at the same time. Play the system while we figure a way out of it.